One of my Christmas presents was a beautiful 2020 spiritual journal/diary. It starts by asking a few questions reflecting on 2019, such as, “What was something that happened to you in 2019 that you’ll never forget”…. Hmmmm, I wonder? 🤷‍♀️ Another question was “If you could travel to the beginning of 2019, what advice would you give yourself?” My answer to this question was to push myself more. Just because I have cancer doesn’t mean I can sit at home being lazy and moping around. It should actually mean the opposite! So, I’ve made a really conscious effort to completely change that this year. And I’m happy to say that it’s working so far. I’ve been so productive around the house, I’ve been cooking more which has been nice and I’m sure Anthony is happy to have a few nights off! I have also been exercising a lot more. I think I’ve done more exercise so far this year than I did nearly all of 2019! But I needed to get back into pilates and yoga as I lost a lot of muscle mass over the past 12 months, so it feels good to know I’m starting to build up my strength again.

Christmas was great! We had all of our family in Rye with us and it was so much fun. Very busy and tiring, but worth it! We had one night to ourselves to recover from our family visits before some friends came down for NYE. Lots of food, games and cuddles with the kiddies, which was perfect. 2020 started out lovely and we were excited for the upcoming year being much better than 2019. Not to say that 2019 was completely shit. There were some pretty awesome moments thrown in there – like travelling to Western Australia and seeing Quokkas 😍

Cancerversary is a new term for me. I had never heard it before I was diagnosed. Now I know that my Cancerversary is January 10th. The day our lives completely changed. Surprisingly I got through Jan 10th 2020 better than expected. Not so surprising is that I was an absolute mess of emotions the night before 😭

I’m focusing a lot of time on my detoxing/complementary therapies at the moment. I’ve started having Vitamin C IV infusions as well as continuing with Reishi mushrooms and a beetroot detox powder. The Reishi mushrooms are in liquid form so I just put that in my juice or tea which is super easy. The beetroot detox doesn’t taste the best. A little bit like dirt… but apparently it’s good for me so I’ll just hold my nose and drink it! I’ve had a few Vitamin C IV’s now and luckily they don’t require anything except me lying down for about half an hour while it’s pumping through me. My non-chemo weeks are basically full with appointments now. Just this week I’ve had appointments for acupuncture, reiki & crystal healing, sauna sessions, a colonic, a foot spa detox and Vitamin C IV. So I’m really looking forward to my scan at the end of this month to see how everything is going! 🤞

Round 23 was delayed a week due to low platelets. Unfortunately, there’s nothing I can do to increase my platelets and my doctor thinks they are lower now because of the accumulation of a year of chemo. They were 77 and needed to be above 90 to go ahead with chemo. If they go below 10, that’s when a transfusion is required, but I’d prefer to avoid that if possible. So I unexpectedly got a mini chemocation. When I went in the following week, my platelets had only gone up to 82 😒 I thought I wouldn’t be able to do chemo again, but this time they were happy for me to go ahead. I think they preferred I go ahead with slightly lower platelets than not have chemo for 4 weeks. Which is totally understandable. It’s a bit scary to think what could happen to the tumors without chemo for an extended period of time.

I’ve also been manifesting a date for this bloody cancer to be gone! As much as I’d love to say “be gone by tomorrow”, I know I need to be realistic about it. My oncologists original prognosis didn’t give me much hope that I’d actually be able to beat cancer. Ever. But I feel like I’m proving her and the statistics wrong. I AM BEATING THIS. So I’m manifesting the 1st of May 2020. The first day I walked into Peter Mac this year, I said to Anthony that I shouldn’t be there. I didn’t need to be there. I don’t feel sick. My cancer is gone. And I truly believe it.